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I’m not a loner by self-selection,
I’m one because I’m alone.
My years of failing at basic connection
Has left me out on my own.
It’s not that I favour my company,
So much as it’s all that’s on offer –
There’s nobody coming to comfort me,
And honestly, why would they bother ?
I’m making the best of solitare
To fend-off the lure of self-pity –
I reckon I’ve still got plenty to share,
But friendships are daunting and bitty.
There’s people I know, but they know dozens,
And I’m just a face at the back –
Or get along for specific discussions,
But best mates ?  I haven’t the knack.
No, come on, don’t start getting mawkish –
My lot is my lot, and that’s that.
Don’t let paranoia get hawkish
If I choke on chewing the fat.
For small-talk, I have too small a voice,
So I’ll slip-away and make-do.
I’m not a loner by personal choice –
I’m one because I’m not two.