My mind I leave to science, to probe and to dissect, To extract and to magnify each secret and regret. To show up my ideas that I never got to note, Or poems I was writing but I somehow never wrote, Or stories for the telling that I never passed along, Or maybe sweetest music for my never sung-out song. Work swift with my ditherings, these children may yet make An epitaph of dreams to be awoken at my wake.
I saw an organ grinder and his capuchin the other day – He made an awful racket, and the monkey didn’t want to play, And no surprise !, the poor bedraggled creature looked a broken thing, Half-starved and half-exhausted, on a short and fraying string. The organist was little better – no musician with a skill – He simply turned the handle to produce the loud and flat and shrill.
I ought to add, this wasn’t in a smart and swanky part of town, Because the rich have constables to move them on and shut them down. Instead, they haunt the humble in the poorest, foulest thoroughfare, In begging half a penny from the folks who haven’t one to spare. But still I stopped, and watched that doleful monkey, as his master hawked, And wondered what he might have dreamt of, if he only could have talked…
“I’d rather be a monkey than an organ grinder, any day – We monkeys gets to leap and dance, and gen’rally to have our way, And sport a hand-made uniform, and all the grapes that we can eat, And always play to cheering crowds from Berkeley Square to Gower Street. And yet the world is quick to view me as a lackey or buffoon – But grinders only get to grind, and grind, and grind all afternoon.”
I saw an organ grinder and his capuchin the other day – And shared a knowing look, we three, of how they’d soon be swept away.
I love to hear the raindrops from the dry-side of the window, As they pitter-patter on the misty glass, kept well at bay – The panes become my armour from the showers and the wind, So I can watch the running rivulets, a quarter-inch away.
I’m far too much busy just watching these wonderful creatures To care for your grammar. They’re so like the ferrets and martens in habit and features – They drown out your clamour. They aren’t, though, that closely related (they’re closer to panthers), They just look the same – For evolution converges on similar answers, And so does their name.
Once there was a time when a man was his surname – The only name they ever used at school, or in the Guards. A gentleman at club would be hailed as little better Than the sappers in the trenches or the inmates in the yards. Forenames were for sissies and for ladies – or your relatives, And only then because they else would all be called the same. Soon as breeched and blazered, they were down to the initial – All that mattered was the fam’ly silver and the fam’ly name, But one or two more wily gents had first-names not to be ignored – Jerome K Jerome and Ford Madox Ford…
This poem is dedicated to William Carlos Williams.
Cry out your name to the wind, As it gathers and flies, Let it carry your name on its wing To the edge of the skies. Cry out your name to the wind, And the wind replies – “I am Aneurin, I am Belinda, The unseen and wise. Now I am Cormac, blowing, blowing, Davina rising, Ezra free – Soon to be Fortune, waiting, growing – Filling the sails at mill and sea. I am the storm and the maelstrom twinned, The harbinger-bringer, the hurricane eyes !” So cry out your name to the wind, And your name shall rise.
Ashes to ashes And ashes to beeches, Ashes wherever The passing breeze reaches, To scatter and nourish The bluebells and oaks, Whose branches are neighbours And flowers are folks.
Ashes have grown And ashes have fallen, But not before raising Their saplings from pollen – We sleep with the ivy And grow with the lime, Whose roots are in mem’ry, And crowns are in time.
The trouble with revolutions is They never stop revolving, And neither do the topsy-turvy Problems that need solving. The old guard that we overcame Are coming-up behind, While those on top are sliding-back – And so the wheel must grind.
And yet…does history repeat, Or echo with a twist ? Have we not changed since last we spun, Last fed the mill with grist ? If we are on an endless loop, What chance have we to learn ? Let’s hope we’re on a helix, then, Advancing as we turn.
February – season of mists And sniffles and sneezes and snorts. The lurgy is lurking, the palsy persists, That there’s no patent tonic or tincture can thwart. My fluid-filled senses are under attack so, And nothing can soothe me from Pfizer or Glaxo. Instead I must mop them with Cussons and Lever – The sweats and the shakes and the chills and the fever.
Is it just because my hands are swollen That my nat’ral poise is stolen ? Clumsy fingers uncontrolling, Rolling like they’re locked in boxing gloves. Is it just the syrup that I’m spooning That sets my giddy head to swooning ? Drifting in-and-out of tuning, Mooning like I’m some young thing in love. Either way, the outlook’s flaky – Something’s come and left me shaky. How am I to stem this phlegm cocooning me, That’s strewn in tubes below and pipes above ?
Unless… Unless it is you who is making me bluesy, Unless it is you who is laying me low, Weary and woozy and bleary and boozy I hate to be choosy, but say it ain’t so ! A cold front is passing, a hard sleet is falling – I hope they blow over once spring comes a-calling… Yet if I’m infected by what I suspect – Then there’s no cure can save me, and no ward protect.
Is it just because my eyes are streaming That the world looks like I’m dreaming ? Hazy psychedelic gleaming, Seeming strangely vivid yet unreal. Or is it my subconscious that I’m spying ? All the drugs my brain’s supplying Must have set my nerves to frying, Flying-off, and sleeping at the wheel. Either way, the outlook’s gloomy – Something’s come and left me rheumy. How can I accept your love undyingly, When dying is precisely how I feel ?